Friday
went off to Ubi to book some lessons. there was this Caucasian guy who was pretty f***ed up with the whole process of applying for a driving license. i guess he found it tedious or somethin. was supposed to go back to school to sign some stuff, but i was already running late to meet the 5 of the "8 of us".
so yeah, we had dinner had Marche. so considerate of them to be eating chicken and seafood ONLY. lols. i always feel like a waitress when we're having our dinners. hah. the food wasn't really that fantastic. i think i showed too much enthusiasm over the soft shell crab.
headed to the Esplanade after that, where we just sat at Mrs. Fields. so there we talked bout the "Wonders of the World", some astronomy stuff and it all ended up into some lame games. fine, i guess i was the slowest of getting all the thingys behind all the games. even so, i still don't get the "bang bang, who die?" =\ but it was funny lah. mooncake for kevin. lols. left when the people there chased us out i.e. closing time.
Saturday
i spent the first half of the day at home. talked over the phone for a while. went to Esplanade AGAIN. had dinner at MS' LJS though. walked around. sat at starbucks.
you know, i actually don't have the mood to carry on what happened during the day. why?
i seriously don't know what's up with me these past few days. i feel like.. bah, i don't know.
it sometimes gets too much when u've got a considerable number of people being somewhat dependant on you. i don't even know who to depend on. i've only myself to depend on. being independent is one thing, but sometimes you just wanna let loose and let somebody pamper you for once, do everything for you.
another thing is when people go "ooooo, they look so cute together" and some other stuff like that. okay, maybe tt's not really the irritant, but when that is being said bout your cousin, then there's this some kind of different impact. it just reminds me how ALL my girl cousins (except for the 8 yr old. i'm not too sure bout the 14 yr old one) have been/are attached. it's like "why has it happened to the rest of them, but not me? do i look wrong or somethin?" yah, i feel miserable. so yah, i've had the occasional flirtings with guys, but they turn out all so wrong. so what is it with me huh? maybe i'm just a disaster just waiting to happen.
even so, i'm not going to be someone who's gonna get into a relationship just cos' everyone else is doing it. i don't wanna be the type that "anyhow take, go and dump". they say being in several relationships lets you be experienced. i say to hell with that lah. i wanna get it right from the very start, but only when the time is right. for now, i just wanna concentrate on my personal development and stuff. so i guess time is not on my side eh?
and to make things worse, my mum was already cursing me when i got back. THIS is the reason why i don't like to get back between 10-12. she'll be like sucha nag that i just feel like locking myself up in the room
ah f***.
i NEED to spend few months out of here. Dubai please save me.
aZm
04 May 88'
Taurean
desires
Ankh/Taurus Pendant
New Wallet
Black Heels
Pair of Jeans
in order of priority
my memories
People in my life